Peer pressure refers to the influence exerted by a peer group in encouraging a person to change his or her attitudes, values, or behavior in order to conform to group norms. Social groups affected include membership groups, when the individual is "formally" a member (for example,political party, trade union), or a social clique. A person affected by peer pressure may or may not want to belong to these groups. They may also recognize dissociative groups with which they would not wish to associate, and thus they behave adversely concerning that group's behaviors.^{[citation needed]} Peer pressure can cause people to do things they would not normally do, e.g. take drugs, smoke, get a girlfriend, marry, have a job, get children, buy expensive items they don't really need (cars, houses, boats), etc.

Took this from wikipedia.I just realized that most of the teenagers nowadays are influenced by peer pressure.So,they end up not being themselves.I guess I'm one of them too. But,I'm changing now. Still finding myself,getting to know myself better. Trying my best to love myself more. Building up my confidence. Basically,I'm changing for the better.

Okay,enough about that.

So yeah,I got 8A's for my PMR examination. For sure,I'm going to science stream,which I've been wanting and Alhamdullilah,it came true.BUT,I have a BIG/HUGE/MAJOR problem.I'm not sure of my ambition.I'm really concern about my future.My mum keeps saying that,'nana,i can't see your interest.what do you wanna do in future?I can see alissa's interest since she was form 1 but until now,i can't see yours.' EEEEEEEEEE!I hate myself for this. :/ I'm a straight a student but I don't even know what I wanna do in future. You know,it hurts being that kind of person. Not knowing what to do.I always go with the flow but now,I have to know what I wanna do. I can see my friends' interests but I can't see mine. Well,for sure I'm really into music but I always take that as a hobby. Never thought about doing anything about it in my future. My stepfather said he didn't care of what I'm gonna be,as long as that is what I want and what I love.He said not to worry about the money,just do what you want,your hobby. My hobby. UGH!:( When I was in kindergarten,I wanted to be a teacher.I thought it was fun but when I look at it now,I don't think I can deal with the pressure. Besides,I suck in dealing with kids. I can't even teach my little sister. She will end up crying and complaining to my mum that I'm being too harsh on her.Haih.So,goodbye to the thought that I wanna be a teacher. Then,I thought of being a doctor. :D The pay is good. But,I can't even look at people who are involved in an accident. It makes me sick and I'll feel like crying. Plus,I have to study for 5-6 years. Man,that is a LONG period. I don't really mind about the period,but I don't think I can cope with the studies. It's just too much. And like I said before,I'm scared of seeing people in blood and anything that is worse than that. Goodbye again. Next,I wanted to be an accountant. :D My mum supported me. She wanted me to be that too. BUT...SEE!I always have a problem. I learned about account for my PMR examination. I felt like committing suicide. It was fucking difficult. I even cried. Then,I told my mum that I don't want to be one. She was quite sad. Goodbye to accountant! -.- THEN!I realized that I really love reading about life.So,I thought,maybe I should be a psychologist! I was really serious about that. Being a psychologist in Malaysia doesn't do much compared in America. So,I made a decision. Migrate there. Then,another problem came out. Mother will DEFINITELY won't agree with my idea.HAHAHA. She will say this and that. I can just imagine the lecture that she is gonna give me.LOL. So,I have to scratch that. And when I thought about it again,I can't leave Malaysia. I love it as much as I hate it.haha. So,Goodbye again! That's the end of it. I've run out of ideas of what I wanna be in future. I know that I can be anything if I'm excellent in my studies but it won't be fun because it's not something that I love. I wanna work for something that I love,that I enjoy doing it. My stepmother gave me an idea. She suggested me to be a pharmacist. With that,I can open my own pharmacy. Plus,I can work with doctors too. Hmm. Sounds interesting,I must say. I'll keep that in my mind.

THIS is my major problem.I need to know what I wanna be in the future. If that's solved,I'll be the HAPPIEST person in the world. Seriously.

I LOVE YOU!:)

Please be mine forever k?

I forgot to post about my holiday in Langkawi.Lol.Well,I did nothing much but it was nice. :) The hotel was like woah!Very pretty and at first,I felt out of place.But then,I felt just nice.My cousins arrived first by plane.I rode the ferry.I reached there around 5.Man,it was a long journey.Lepak kat the beach,then pegi swimming.haha.Nothing interesting to tell but I love my last night at langkawi.I was sitting at the lounge while listening to the live band with my cousins.My aunt and my uncle joined too but they went back first.We stayed longer,until 1 in the morning.haha.I love the songs!But they were love songs la.HAHA.Yeah,I do love listening to love songs.Especially when it's live. ;)

The next morning,we were having breakfast.My uncle said,'korang semalam training nk clubbing ke?blk bilik kul 1 lebih.' hahahahaha.Well,I do want to go to a club one day.Just to check out,not more than that.I think.hahahaha.

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Wow.It has been way long since I last updated my blog.pfft.Baru last week.hahaha.But,it was a short post,depressing too.Lol.I got my result already.YAY!8As!Happy tak terkata.I can't stop smiling!I've been waiting for this and I got sick for being too stressed over this thing.My blood pressure is quite low now.Need to eat more salty food and I need to exercise AT LEAST 3 times a week. :O Dah la makin lama makin malas nk exercise. :/ But,Syed is gonna help me.So,with him,I'll definitely exercise.Trust me,you don't want him to get mad at you.Love you. :D

About today,I went out from home early because Mother didn't want the kids to follow because it would be a big drama.A very big drama.Had breakfast at Mcd with Mother.Went to the mosque,then headed to school.Met Ustazah,my form teacher.After that,waited for my result anxiously.Called Amy and Sino,asked them to come early.I was about to cry,like I did when I was waiting for my upsr's result.But,I didn't. :D Told myself to be strong.Plus,I got scolded by Father last night for being so nervous.haha.I couldn't sleep in peace last night.I woke up every hour.Anyway,back to school.After 10,The teachers went to the office to get the results.On that moment,Amy,Annaz and I were sitting nervously at Anjung.We talked to distract the long waiting.Finally,The teachers came down.Mother quickly took my hand and asked me to get the result first.I was actually the first in line but people kept cutting the line and I was the last.My parents were like,'Airina!just get the result!!!'.HAHA.So,I made myself to walk to my teacher.Ustazah looked at me and said my name and said congratulations.I looked at my slip and jumped.:DDDDD Hugged my mum and my dad.Cried a bit.Tears of happiness. :) Hugged almost everyone.haha.Syed's mum,Ustazah Rosida,Pn.Azriza,my friends and I couldn't recall the others.

Sorry for the long absence,quite busy.I'm in Langkawi now.Having a holiday with my dad's family and my cousins.Hmm.So far,the holiday is not bad,I EAT A LOT.Damn it.Perut dh mcm bola.:O I need to exercise when I'm at home later.Planning to go out next Monday,just one day since PMR's result is coming out on thursday.SHIT.:'( I don't know what to expect.Anyway,back to the outing.Called Mother and the moment she picked up the phone,I knew that she was not in a good mood.She's always like that when I'm away.Asked her if I could go out on Monday and she said,'Keluar?when are you coming back?belum balik lg nak kuar dh.we will discuss about this later.' Ouch.That hurts me a lot.Especially when I'm quite depressed now. A mother can do anything to you.With that phone call,I cried.I can't stand it.The way she talks to me is so sarcastic,with the tone she used.I don't even know why I'm writing about this.I'm supposed to write about my holiday in Langkawi but after that phone call,I can't type anymore. :(

Sorry.Bye.Please pray for my result.I'm scared to death now.I want 8A's.

Yesterday,went to my aunt's house in damansara utama.We were having a family meeting about my cousin,abang fazli,who's getting married soon.Things were pretty dull at first.But then,my nephews came and omg,they were really adorable. :) Played with them,talked to my cousin,Salwa.The adults were talking about the wedding.They were picking out a date for the wedding to be held.The funny part started here.First,abang fazli wanted to do it during the chinese new year because with that,he can watch world cup with his wife.awww,that's really sweet,watching football with your wife. :) But,he's scared people would be away since it's during the holidays.So,he wanted to do in june,the month when world cup will start.It will not work out because he knew that him and his friends will want to watch world cup.HAHA.Change of plan,again.Finally,he decided to do it after world cup ends.My other cousin,kak rini had to google to check the date of when world cup will be started.HAHA.=_____=' Abang fazli showed his future wife's picture.She's a bit chubby but pretty. :)