Peer pressure refers to the influence exerted by a peer group in encouraging a person to change his or her attitudes, values, or behavior in order to conform to group norms. Social groups affected include membership groups, when the individual is "formally" a member (for example,political party, trade union), or a social clique. A person affected by peer pressure may or may not want to belong to these groups. They may also recognize dissociative groups with which they would not wish to associate, and thus they behave adversely concerning that group's behaviors.^{[citation needed]} Peer pressure can cause people to do things they would not normally do, e.g. take drugs, smoke, get a girlfriend, marry, have a job, get children, buy expensive items they don't really need (cars, houses, boats), etc.

Took this from wikipedia.I just realized that most of the teenagers nowadays are influenced by peer pressure.So,they end up not being themselves.I guess I'm one of them too. But,I'm changing now. Still finding myself,getting to know myself better. Trying my best to love myself more. Building up my confidence. Basically,I'm changing for the better.

Okay,enough about that.

So yeah,I got 8A's for my PMR examination. For sure,I'm going to science stream,which I've been wanting and Alhamdullilah,it came true.BUT,I have a BIG/HUGE/MAJOR problem.I'm not sure of my ambition.I'm really concern about my future.My mum keeps saying that,'nana,i can't see your interest.what do you wanna do in future?I can see alissa's interest since she was form 1 but until now,i can't see yours.' EEEEEEEEEE!I hate myself for this. :/ I'm a straight a student but I don't even know what I wanna do in future. You know,it hurts being that kind of person. Not knowing what to do.I always go with the flow but now,I have to know what I wanna do. I can see my friends' interests but I can't see mine. Well,for sure I'm really into music but I always take that as a hobby. Never thought about doing anything about it in my future. My stepfather said he didn't care of what I'm gonna be,as long as that is what I want and what I love.He said not to worry about the money,just do what you want,your hobby. My hobby. UGH!:( When I was in kindergarten,I wanted to be a teacher.I thought it was fun but when I look at it now,I don't think I can deal with the pressure. Besides,I suck in dealing with kids. I can't even teach my little sister. She will end up crying and complaining to my mum that I'm being too harsh on her.Haih.So,goodbye to the thought that I wanna be a teacher. Then,I thought of being a doctor. :D The pay is good. But,I can't even look at people who are involved in an accident. It makes me sick and I'll feel like crying. Plus,I have to study for 5-6 years. Man,that is a LONG period. I don't really mind about the period,but I don't think I can cope with the studies. It's just too much. And like I said before,I'm scared of seeing people in blood and anything that is worse than that. Goodbye again. Next,I wanted to be an accountant. :D My mum supported me. She wanted me to be that too. BUT...SEE!I always have a problem. I learned about account for my PMR examination. I felt like committing suicide. It was fucking difficult. I even cried. Then,I told my mum that I don't want to be one. She was quite sad. Goodbye to accountant! -.- THEN!I realized that I really love reading about life.So,I thought,maybe I should be a psychologist! I was really serious about that. Being a psychologist in Malaysia doesn't do much compared in America. So,I made a decision. Migrate there. Then,another problem came out. Mother will DEFINITELY won't agree with my idea.HAHAHA. She will say this and that. I can just imagine the lecture that she is gonna give me.LOL. So,I have to scratch that. And when I thought about it again,I can't leave Malaysia. I love it as much as I hate it.haha. So,Goodbye again! That's the end of it. I've run out of ideas of what I wanna be in future. I know that I can be anything if I'm excellent in my studies but it won't be fun because it's not something that I love. I wanna work for something that I love,that I enjoy doing it. My stepmother gave me an idea. She suggested me to be a pharmacist. With that,I can open my own pharmacy. Plus,I can work with doctors too. Hmm. Sounds interesting,I must say. I'll keep that in my mind.

THIS is my major problem.I need to know what I wanna be in the future. If that's solved,I'll be the HAPPIEST person in the world. Seriously.