A happy family.

How do you describe it?

Well,I don't have the answer but I'm hoping that I'll find the answer in the future later on.

It's not easy yknow,it's complicated.

I do want a happy family.I don't want my children to feel the same way like I did.It's still a long way to go.I need to get myself settled down first.

However,I do believe that a happy family is the key to become a happy person.

Ignore this post.They are just thoughts running in my mind.I didn't know a lot of things can give side effects to your life despite how strong you are in dealing with fucking complications.This post is definitely not in order,mind that.I'm just writing whatever that pops in my mind.I guess that's why I love blogging although my blog looks dull and boring.I can just write whatever I want without people stopping me.

Anyway,it's not easy to pretend that everything is fine although you do know that something is wrong somewhere.

Wanna know something?I'm actually scared to face the real world.Seriously,I'm not gonna stop growing up and I will have to deal with a lot of things later on.

Please Allah,please give me the strength to endure every single thing that comes into my way in achieving my dream life.

I don't know about my ambition but I do have something in mind.InsyaAllah,everything will be just fine.

Well,hello again.

Hmm.I'm just wondering.

How does it feel to have a friend who only comes to you when he/she feels misery and before you know it,that friend is gone?

after a long period of time,that person starts to feel misery in his/her life again,that person comes back to you and pours his/her heart out to you and of course,you will wait and you are willing to listen to the same thing over and over again because a friend in need is a friend indeed,right?

Well,is it worth doing it when that person only comes to you when misery,sadness,frustration and depression start to haunt his/her life?
Is it really worth being friends with that person?

I just finished watching my sister's keeper.OOEEMMMGEEEEEE!I cried.Serious shit man,I'm not kidding.The storyline is fantastic.I'm gonna get the book :D It shows how much you can do for your family and unconditional love is well described in this movie.I must say that this is a great movie.Awesome!I don't know how to describe more but I totally understand the whole situation.I won't cry if it's not a great movie. ;)

I feel like shit.My body is aching,especially my tummy.poor tummy.

Gosh,when will this stop?I've been having this for years.Please,just stop.I hate it,it affects me a lot.Painkillers are saving me from this misery but come on,I can't keep depending on them.I had the strong panadol and ponstan at once.The pain was like hell. :'( Pleaseeeeeee,go away pain.I don't need you in my life.You're not wanted.Go away. :/

My mood is SO not stable at the moment.LOL.I've been having mood swings so DON'T mess with me.Qila called me just now,she's finally at home.yippeeeeeeeeee!:D IMISSHERALOT.I'm so glad you're back now woman!haha.I have stories to tell you.We definitely must do girls' talk. ;)

Okay,let's see.A few exciting things happened this week.Let's start with the day after I came back from Desaru.I did the driving and such.Fortunately,I'm getting my P soon so GOODBYE L,HELLO P!:D

I met him on wednesday. Just the both of us. woot woot ;D HEHE.As usual,we went to petronas,bought chipster and drinks. We started off talking with an interesting topic which was 45 things a girl would want but would never ask from a guy.Basically,girls expect their boyfriends to do those things without giving any hint.lol.I read that from someone's blog and I must say that all of them are true. :) While we were walking around the neighbourhood,it started to rain so we decided to go to the nearest bus stop.In front of sksb.hehe.It didn't rain like cats and dogs so we continued walking and talking.I was really happy since things went smoothly.hehe. However,it suddenly started to rain heavily and we had no choice but to run all the way to the bus stop again.By the time we reached the bus stop,we were already soaking wet.HAHA.Sumpah mmg hindustan habis la ;p We were both freezing.We wanted to wait until the rain stopped but it didn't show any sign of stopping although time was ticking like super fast.We had to run again,in the rain.hahahaha.I enjoyed but woah,it was REALLY COLD.Fucking cold man,I'm not lying.I'm not the kind of person who can withstand the low temperature.hehehe.I'm always freezing now.I have to blame seseri.HAHA.Anyway,I went back home and ran straight to the toilet downstairs.I took my shower and warmed myself.FORTUNATELY,I was not caught with my parents because I would be SO dead if that happened.hehe.So,I managed to escape. ;D Despite being soaked with rain,I definitely enjoyed that evening with him.Thanks for everything,I seriously love you.Please bear with my crazy and weird attitude.Not forgetting,my mood swings as well.hehe. :') Hmm,I had my jpj test on thursday so we met again on friday morning. I actually took my shower.HAHAHAH.Don't ask why,only the gang understands why I mentioned about the shower issue. :D We went to petronas because he had to go for a toilet stop.hehehe.We walked all the way to salma to have our breakfast and we met Amy and Amin.Lol.They were about to leave but they joined us anyway. :) We talked,laughed,talked,laughed,whispered.hahaha.They went back home first since Amin had to do something.I walked back home with him. We took a leisure walk and it was reallyyyyyyyy funnnnnnnn :D Honestly,the best walk ever,for now la.HEHE.

I went to my dad's house later that evening.I got ready and went to chinoz at KLCC to celebrate my cousins' birthday there.They are twins and I grew up with them so we are really close.Our house are never far since we were born.If it's not walking distance,it's only a few minutes drive.We share a lot together and we always hang out.We didn't get to hang out that much when I entered Seseri but it's payback time now.muahahahaha. :p Anywayyyy,I met my other cousins there.I had mushroom soup for dinner and it was soooooo delicious.I really love the mushroom soup. :) After that,I changed my clothes and such for the next event,the club.HAHA.Yeah,I went clubbing with my cousins and their friends.I'm the youngest among all of them but I really enjoyed myself.We went to the sultan lounge at mandarin oriental hotel.The entrance was really cool.It was only around 11.45p.m when we reached there so not many people were there.I had mango juice.hehe.People started to arrive around 12 and the music started to get loud as well.Time to partyyyyyyyyyyyy!:D My cousin pulled my hand and we danced at the dance floor.The songs were awesome!sumpah best ah.hahahahha.We danced like hell,enjoying every moment of it.I reached home around 2 in the morning,I guess.hehe.I took my shower.I smelled like smoke.People were smoking everywhere.After that,I talked to him and I ALMOST fell asleep during the conversation but fortunately,I managed to motivate myself to stay awake.HAHAHA.Ayat nak dramatic je -.- Do you see how much effort I put in this?hehe :D 

For today,I only went karaoke with my cousins.I met Faisal a.k.a. pakcik :D Dah lama gila tak jumpa dia. He's going to alam tomorrow while I'm still enjoying myself at home.hehehe. So,that's the week that I had and I must say that I do enjoy myself a lot.

Btw Qila,I miss you until I almost cried.Man,I didn't know that the impact was strong.I can't imagine when we enter college later on.haih.lol.

makcik qila,cepat la balik.haha

Hell yeah,it's starting again.

:'(

don't ask.

I have a confession to make.

I think I'm starting to like pink again. -.-

I miss you Qila :'(

Please come home

EEEEEeeeeeee

:/

DON'T ASK.

Salam :)

Woah,hello blog!:D I had an awesome time at Desaru :') Furthermore,I met SABBYYYYYYYY <3 Omg,rindu gila kat dia.We took a picture,obviously.Pictures last forever ;) 

Tomorrow is my jpj test.YIKES :S

Wish me luck.I'll try my best to please the jpj dude.hehe :D insyaAllah :)  Please pray for me,I can't wait to get my P!

Yeah,it's indeed an old song but I just love it. :)

Good afternoon peeps ;)

As I said previously,I had fun yesterday.Firstly,I went to ikano,had breakfast with Father at kluang station.I ate nasi lemak chicken rendang.LOL.I know,it was a heavy breakfast.Well,I was starving and nasi lemak since to be my first choice.Father had chicken chop as his breakfast.Lagi pelik.hahahaha.I had a walk at the curve after that.I was walking alone.Haih,forever alone ni.hehe.Anyway,I went in to a lot of shops.I did window shopping and GOSHHHHHHH,there are so many clothes that I adore and how I wish to spend my money to buy them.Unfortunately,luck is not on my side yesterday.I didn't have any money.Before I hurt myself even more,I decided to go to starbucks and hung out with Father.I walked back to ikano,reluctantly.LOL.I read my book while listening to my ipod.I'm still the same old me,I do enjoy reading while listening to music.Call me a lame person but whatever man,I don't give a shit about it.This is me.I'm not a shopaholic anymore.I went back home after that and continued reading until I fell asleep.When I woke up,I got 3 missed calls from my friend.HAHA.I'm so sorry,when it comes to sleeping,my phone will be ignored no matter how alert I am.Well,most of the time,I won't get to hear my phone ringing because I'm always in a deep sleep.HEHE.So yeah,people just have to bear with me.Sleeping is something inseparable from me. :D Anyway,Father drove us to Lake Club to meet up with my friends while he went to his favourite place,the gym.hahaha.I usually tagged along with Father but after I entered Seseri,the laziness seems to prevent me from going there.HAHAHA.Excuses after excuses. :p I'll start going there,I promise.I want to have a healthy body.I think I wanna learn tennis.Maybe learning a new language will not happen now but it will someday. ;) I went to the lake garden with Asiyah and Mj.Mj's real name is nur amira najiha but it's too long so we call her Mj instead.Trust me,she's really tall. :D Fortunately,she managed to find a boyfriend that is taller than her.Well,a basketball player la kan.Bagus la,the both of you play basketball,how sweet :D We took a walk and of course,pictures were taken as well.While walking,we saw other people riding electric bikes and it was so cool!We asked where could we get it and tadaaaaa!,we were also cycling around the park. :D It was really random.We didn't even do a proper plan to hang out at lake garden.Random things are fun,trust me. ;) After that,we had our drinks and met Father. Mj went home first and Asiyah went back later.I reached home around Maghrib so I quickly took my shower and prayed. Ezzah said she was on her way to my house so I changed into my jeans and we went out for dinner together.There were me,Ezzah,,Ezzati,Meisha,Maryam and Ibrahim.We were riding a kancil car. :D Well,Maryam and Ibrahim are still toddlers so we had enough space in the car. Maryam finally wants me!I was so touched and my cousins were like OMG!.   Ibrahim was still shy with me but after we had our dinner,he wanted me to carry him.AWWWWWWW,I know,he's sooooooo adorable. :') I went back home around 10.30pm. I settled myself first before I signed in my skype account to video call with him. :) We talked until it was almost 3.30am I guess?I can't recall the exact time we stopped.LOL. Yesterday was indeed tiring but hell yeah,I had fun. I'm just relaxing for today but tomorrow,the fun starts again. :D

I can't believe that I keep watching kourtney and kim take new york although I know it's typical.

Btw,I had a lot of fun today.I did random things and those things made my day.I'll tell more about it later.I have something else to do for now.

Bye :)

It was a fine peaceful evening.I was reading a book written by Tony Parsons.Man,he's really good in writing stories.I loveeeee his stories. :D Anyway,while I was reading,Mother sat in front of me.She was so focus in looking at her mobile phone.I ignored her as she was quiet.

"Shit!come on!"

"Ma,what are you doing?"

"Huh?oh.hahahaha.I'm playing angry bird."

"Haiya.You looked so serious."

-__________________-"

I guess my family is indeed into games.


Okay,I'm starting to feel annoyed with people forcing me to eat more than I want.Yeah,I know that I eat a lot but that was last time.I've gained a few pounds and it terrified me.I can't keep on gaining pounds.When I freaked out,my friends would say,"ala,relax la.You're still growing."
-_____-
Hello,it's not growing when you're growing sideways.Evil fats is accumulating in my body and damn,I don't feel good about myself.It's starting to destroy my confidence level again.
"Airina,stop being so cautious about your body.You're just fine.This body is fine,you look healthy."
I'm wondering if people are saying like that because they mean it or they just get tired of listening to my complaints.I'm sorry guys but I can't help it.I don't feel good about my body.My parents will get very worried whenever I say that I'm not hungry.Come on,I'm not having any food disorder.I'm just not hungry,can't people just get that statement?I just don't like it when people force me to eat when I don't wanna eat.I'm fine.Stop spoiling me with food.I'm really desperate to lose weight for now.I won't stop until I finally get a good feeling of my body.I won't stop until I can finally look in the mirror without having a sense of guilt in myself.
Am I sick?I don't think so.

Hello everyone :)

I passed QTI!:D
I'm SO HAPPY.HEHE.I'm qualified to go for the jpj test,Alhamdullilah.I hope I'll do well,InsyaAllah.

I've been spending a lot of money for...food.
Seriously,I eat a lot and I eat everything,thanks to Seseri. -.-

Tomorrow is my QTI.I forgot the full name of it but it's like a test before you go for the jpj test.If I do well,I'm qualified to go for jpj test.yippeeee!:D I hope I'll do well,InsyaAllah.
Okay,I almost cried after maghrib.Just a few tears,not much.lol.I'm scared.Results are coming out.SPM.NOOOOOOOO.Haih,I think I'm having one of those mood swings.Blegh,this annoys me a lot.Don't mess with me people,I'm not in my best mood.Bhahaha.
I drove the family car,Alza. :D Gosh,the car was sooooooooo smooth.I enjoyed driving it.Mother was about to panic when I said I wanted to drive but she managed to calm down.hahaha.I can't wait to get my license. :D
Okay,I need to get my beauty sleep. Good night and sleep well everyone :)

I don't have any money.Damn,cepat gila duit abis,bukannya shopping pun.sigh. -.-

I love Garrett's popcorn.OMG,sedap gilaaaaaaa,especially the chicago mix :D

"Why did you break up with him?"

"Well,we are back together now."

"WHAT?!whyyy??!!"

"I don't know."

"Are you feeling guilty?"

"NO."

"Then,there must be a reason to get back with him."

"Can we not talk about this?I don't like to talk about this topic."

"Adik,you need to learn how to express your feelings.You need to talk,you can't just keep it to yourself because you'll burst."

"I know that but I'm okay."

"I had a boyfriend who was abusive.He hit me because I didn't want to give in.Guys are dangerous and crazy nowadays.They tend to hit their own girlfriends without having a sense of guilt in themselves."

"I know that.It's okay,Mama knows about him."

I know it's rude but I really don't like to talk about this topic with my parents.I had that conversation with Stepmother during dinner.It was just the both of us,Father had a meeting so he couldn't join us.I know that she's worried about me since I'm already eighteen and I rarely talk about my feelings or my problems with her.I tend to keep it to myself.Well,that's true but I do talk about my problems with my friends..I guess I'm more comfortable to talk about it with my friends.Furthermore,I don't want my parents to worry about me.I know I've been quiet and I don't talk much whenever I'm with my family.Well,that's just me.I can't change myself.However,I start to talk when I entered Seseri. I still don't tell much though.I just can't,it's not easy,trust me.My parents are worried about me,I know that because all of us suffered back then.They had a hard time with my sister.They are just scared that I'll end up like that but I won't,okay?Please believe me.I'm okay,I know what's wrong and what's right.I know my boundaries.I know what kind of friends to choose and please,don't ever judge my friends without getting to know them first.My friends matter a lot to me.They help me a lot in my life and they definitely play a vital role in my life.Without them,I don't think I'll be truly happy.Please,just believe me in this.I'm okay,I'm not involve in bad things.I don't drink,I don't even sneak out.I'm not like her.We are totally different.She's the opposite of me and we are not even close.I'm not gonna say that I'm better than her or more mature than her but I do know how to handle myself in certain ways.I know the pros and cons.InsyaAllah,everything will be fine.I believe in Allah.

I went out with jijah to education fair.We watched the darkest hour before going there.hehe.Thanks for the day babe,I enjoyed it.Oh yaaaaa,I met hafidz btw :D He joined us for the career talk and all of us were sleepy but it was not a strange thing to us anymore since we were like that back in school.LOL

That's it!I'm gonna learn a new language.

Ma and Ayah,pleaseeeeeeee?

My siblings are driving me crazy!I need to go out.HELP.SOBSOBSOB

Good morning peeps :)

I didn't sleep after subuh. :D I hope this routine will continue forever.LOL.So yeah,I'm going to the education fair later with Jijah. :) Yesterday was fun la,not bad.hehe.I heard talks about medicine. I don't think I have the passion.HAHA.Seriously,I don't know what I wanna do in my studies later on.Haih.This is more difficult than answering test papers -.- I met Izzah.OMG,it has been YEARS since we last met.It's so good to see you again babe :') I met Seseri friends,Mayam and Kamilah.

From far,I saw Mayam and I ran to her in the middle of the crowd.HEHE.I MISS HER SO MUCH. ;D I met diyana and her friends. Poor guys,they had to wait for us since we talked a lot,obviously.Girls love to talk.hahaha. I'm gonna watch a movie before attending the career talk.muahahaha. Goodbye peeps,have a nice day!<3

A day at Petronas.

I'm going to Education Fair today,again.

Yeah,I'm a geek.

They are so ADORABLE <3 They are the babies in my family.hehe.The girl is Maryam btw.She likes to hit me and she adores my phone.HAHA.There are times when she will kiss me.Awww,I love it when she does that and I especially love when she says my name :D

Azizah :) I prefer to call her Jijah ;D
She's awesome,super awesome :')
I really love her,seriously.She has been there for me through thick and thin.Of course,we had misunderstandings but hey,that's life and our friendship grew stronger than before.Thanks Jijah for everything,Iloveyoulots <3
I can't wait to see her,we are going to edufair together.I have so many stories to tell you!

OhhEmmGeee.

I spent 2 hours non-stop watching 9gag.com. LOL

Before that,I read about Amalina and Sufiah. Genius students who studied overseas. I was on facebook when a picture of Amalina appeared at my newsfeed. It was interesting so I checked it out. Surprised?Hmm,not really. It's not a big deal,seriously. People who talked shit about her should get a life.Seriously,it's none of your business to do shit talks about her with other people.Spreading her pictures,especially.Get a life,seriously.

Hello,good evening :)

LOL.

Hmm,a lot of things happened.Let's start with new year's eve celebration,shall we?hehe :p

Well,something special happened on that day and I must say that I'm glad it happened.Qila did a small gathering at her house.It was just us,the bois and gegirls :') Unfortunately,Amy couldn't join since her grandmother's birthday is new year's eve.lol.I decorated Q ila's cake!I did it with Sino.Man,I'm not an art person so it didn't turn out good and to make things worse,it's my first time to decorate a cake.HAHA.I seriously suck when it comes to cooking and anything related to it.Blegh,I'm gonna have to start learning it.HEHE.Anywayyyyy,I came first,alone.forever alone.lol. The rest came with Arimi. I saw him.HAHA.Yeah,that dude. I went to the kitchen and continued to do my business.He looked different,in a good way,of course. :p After eating,we took a walk around the neighborhood while enjoying our vanilla ice-cream with only a spoon.hahahaha.We took pictures and Amin got scolded by an old lady for touching her stuff.HAHAHAHA. ;P HOWEVER, as I said,something happened that night. Before taking a walk, him and I were the first to go out.The others stayed behind and I called but obviously,they planned this without telling a SINGLE word to me.-.- haha.Looking oblivious,I continued walking with him and shivers started to run in my body.I felt butterflies in my stomach.haha,seriously though.After being a bit away from Qila's house,he did the talking first.hehe. He did that smile. I was like, shit,please,not now. As usual,I fell for that smile.hehehe.I couldn't help it.I did a lot of thinking before that night.We got back together that night. :) Okaay,that's all,I can't tell more.haha.

Am I heavenly in love now?I don't even have an answer for that.Maybe I do but I prefer to keep it to myself. Some things just can't be told.;) We are back to normal and I'm really happy with what I have now. A new year has begun and I hope for the best out of it. Allah,please make my wishes come true. I'm not in school anymore, I'm currently discovering life.HAHA. It sounds stupid,I know. One thing for sure though, I'm not stopping from growing up. :)

OLLA :D

I just came back from my driving class.I drove a viva car.Because of that,I wasn't with the usual instructor. :/ I got another instructor and he was so cold to me,not even a single warm smile.NONE.Pfft -.- He kept reminding me about stuff.I know it's good for him to do that but somehow I got annoyed because the way he said was as if I know nothing.Blegh.Whatever la,I don't care.I hope I will get the old instructor back.Please pray for me.LOL.Two more lessons and I'm going for the jpj test. :D

just a quick update.I got a laptop.wheeeeeeee :D that's it for now.I have driving class,bye!