It was a fine peaceful evening.I was reading a book written by Tony Parsons.Man,he's really good in writing stories.I loveeeee his stories. :D Anyway,while I was reading,Mother sat in front of me.She was so focus in looking at her mobile phone.I ignored her as she was quiet.
"Shit!come on!"
"Ma,what are you doing?"
"Huh?oh.hahahaha.I'm playing angry bird."
"Haiya.You looked so serious."
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I guess my family is indeed into games.
Okay,I'm starting to feel annoyed with people forcing me to eat more than I want.Yeah,I know that I eat a lot but that was last time.I've gained a few pounds and it terrified me.I can't keep on gaining pounds.When I freaked out,my friends would say,"ala,relax la.You're still growing."
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Hello,it's not growing when you're growing sideways.Evil fats is accumulating in my body and damn,I don't feel good about myself.It's starting to destroy my confidence level again.
"Airina,stop being so cautious about your body.You're just fine.This body is fine,you look healthy."
I'm wondering if people are saying like that because they mean it or they just get tired of listening to my complaints.I'm sorry guys but I can't help it.I don't feel good about my body.My parents will get very worried whenever I say that I'm not hungry.Come on,I'm not having any food disorder.I'm just not hungry,can't people just get that statement?I just don't like it when people force me to eat when I don't wanna eat.I'm fine.Stop spoiling me with food.I'm really desperate to lose weight for now.I won't stop until I finally get a good feeling of my body.I won't stop until I can finally look in the mirror without having a sense of guilt in myself.
Am I sick?I don't think so.
"Shit!come on!"
"Ma,what are you doing?"
"Huh?oh.hahahaha.I'm playing angry bird."
"Haiya.You looked so serious."
-__________________-"
I guess my family is indeed into games.
Okay,I'm starting to feel annoyed with people forcing me to eat more than I want.Yeah,I know that I eat a lot but that was last time.I've gained a few pounds and it terrified me.I can't keep on gaining pounds.When I freaked out,my friends would say,"ala,relax la.You're still growing."
-_____-
Hello,it's not growing when you're growing sideways.Evil fats is accumulating in my body and damn,I don't feel good about myself.It's starting to destroy my confidence level again.
"Airina,stop being so cautious about your body.You're just fine.This body is fine,you look healthy."
I'm wondering if people are saying like that because they mean it or they just get tired of listening to my complaints.I'm sorry guys but I can't help it.I don't feel good about my body.My parents will get very worried whenever I say that I'm not hungry.Come on,I'm not having any food disorder.I'm just not hungry,can't people just get that statement?I just don't like it when people force me to eat when I don't wanna eat.I'm fine.Stop spoiling me with food.I'm really desperate to lose weight for now.I won't stop until I finally get a good feeling of my body.I won't stop until I can finally look in the mirror without having a sense of guilt in myself.
Am I sick?I don't think so.
hha. weight concius ....
ReplyDeleteok. mereka mmg mksd kannya lah.
kau x gemuk. tpi gemuk-confuse.
hha. tpi elok la jgk. t 10 tahun ag bole la
maintain...
airiiiin chill..we won't bising2 anymore ok?
ReplyDeletewe just get worried when you don't eat 'cos nanti you sakit.
oklah,next time when we're having our usual lepak-ing.i'll serve you guys vege/fruit meals pulak ok.that way,you and everyone else takdelah rasa guilty asyik makan je.hahaha :p