hello.
Let's just say that I feel like writing now. I'm having my semester break and I'm so stressful.
Things keep repeating no matter how much I try to avoid it. I really wish I could change myself,seriously. People are so good in making new friends, just like when we were kids. I never have that. I seem to be cold to people but I guess I'm not good in interacting with new people. It reminds me of Seseri. When I first entered Seseri, I had a fucking difficult time to fit in and accept new people in my life. It took almost a year for me to finally feel like I'm there. Lol. I know, I'm so bad in this. What to do -____-" Things like this affect me physically and emotionally I guess. Haih. I try so hard to be strong but I ended up in tears. :'( I don't like this. I dont want this to affect my studies. My mid-semester exam is on this coming Monday and I gotta be honest. I did study but I don't think it's enough. I never think it's enough. Lol. I feel the same way during SPM and my result was not that good. :/ I don't want this to happen again. I want to be cheerful. Sometimes I feel so fake :( ahhhhhh, I need to get my head straight.Please pray for my exam. I need your prayers, I'm really scared.
After a week staying in UM, I gotta say that I'm actually enjoying myself. I guess it's because class has not started yet.hehehe :p Honestly,it's much better than Seseri, in terms of freedom. LOL.
So yeah,Congrats to my friends who got MARA!:) All the best,I'm so happy for them. I applied but I didn't get it. I guess it's not my call. Everything happens for a reason.I believe in that. I'm just gonna be an optimistic person. I'm gonna work my ass off to score 4 flat for my asasi,insyaAllah :) Class is gonna start tomorrow. I'm so excited but I'm feeling seriously nervous and I'm scared that I'm gonna be sleepy. That's my biggest weakness.HAHA.
Let's see. I haven't been updating my blog since forever.hehe.I'm truly sorry for that because my life had been SUPER BUSY and I just happened to be not in the mood for blogging. Sigh. Lol. Whatever. This is just a place for me to write out my thoughts,confessions, and such.
I didn't get Petronas scholarship :'( Well, I'm still in the waiting list but my chances are really THIN. I lost hope but at the same time, I'm hoping for a miracle. Whatever it is, Allah knows the best for me. I got great news after spending one whole night crying hysterically. -.- Lol. I got the offer to study at Universiti Malaya :) Alhamdullilah! I didn't want to enter IPTA unless I got UM and Allah granted my wish. I'm so thankful for that! Everything happens for a reason. I guess engineering is not meant to be. The good thing about getting PASUM, I can still choose which course I will take after completing PASUM. Of course, my result for PASUM will be considered so yeah, I'm putting a promise to myself that I will try my VERY BEST to achieve the highest. Well,at least till I reach the requirements. I'm still waiting for MARA's result after the interview. The interview was okay but I can't put my hopes too high.I'm just gonna wait and whatever the result is,I will just have to accept the news with resilience. Of course,I want the MARA SO BADLY THAT I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE IN WORD HOW MUCH I DESPERATELY WANT IT. I don't have the power to make a decision. So yeah, just go with the flow and pray for the best :)
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