Things keep repeating no matter how much I try to avoid it. I really wish I could change myself,seriously. People are so good in making new friends, just like when we were kids. I never have that. I seem to be cold to people but I guess I'm not good in interacting with new people. It reminds me of Seseri. When I first entered Seseri, I had a fucking difficult time to fit in and accept new people in my life. It took almost a year for me to finally feel like I'm there. Lol. I know, I'm so bad in this. What to do -____-"  Things like this affect me physically and emotionally I guess. Haih. I try so hard to be strong but I ended up in tears. :'( I don't like this. I dont want this to affect my studies. My mid-semester exam is on this coming Monday and I gotta be honest. I did study but I don't think it's enough. I never think it's enough. Lol. I feel the same way during SPM and my result was not that good. :/ I don't want this to happen again. I want to be cheerful. Sometimes I feel so fake :( ahhhhhh, I need to get my head straight.Please pray for my exam. I need your prayers, I'm really scared.