I can't believe that I keep watching kourtney and kim take new york although I know it's typical.

Btw,I had a lot of fun today.I did random things and those things made my day.I'll tell more about it later.I have something else to do for now.

Bye :)

It was a fine peaceful evening.I was reading a book written by Tony Parsons.Man,he's really good in writing stories.I loveeeee his stories. :D Anyway,while I was reading,Mother sat in front of me.She was so focus in looking at her mobile phone.I ignored her as she was quiet.

"Shit!come on!"

"Ma,what are you doing?"

"Huh?oh.hahahaha.I'm playing angry bird."

"Haiya.You looked so serious."

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I guess my family is indeed into games.


Okay,I'm starting to feel annoyed with people forcing me to eat more than I want.Yeah,I know that I eat a lot but that was last time.I've gained a few pounds and it terrified me.I can't keep on gaining pounds.When I freaked out,my friends would say,"ala,relax la.You're still growing."
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Hello,it's not growing when you're growing sideways.Evil fats is accumulating in my body and damn,I don't feel good about myself.It's starting to destroy my confidence level again.
"Airina,stop being so cautious about your body.You're just fine.This body is fine,you look healthy."
I'm wondering if people are saying like that because they mean it or they just get tired of listening to my complaints.I'm sorry guys but I can't help it.I don't feel good about my body.My parents will get very worried whenever I say that I'm not hungry.Come on,I'm not having any food disorder.I'm just not hungry,can't people just get that statement?I just don't like it when people force me to eat when I don't wanna eat.I'm fine.Stop spoiling me with food.I'm really desperate to lose weight for now.I won't stop until I finally get a good feeling of my body.I won't stop until I can finally look in the mirror without having a sense of guilt in myself.
Am I sick?I don't think so.

Hello everyone :)

I passed QTI!:D
I'm SO HAPPY.HEHE.I'm qualified to go for the jpj test,Alhamdullilah.I hope I'll do well,InsyaAllah.

I've been spending a lot of money for...food.
Seriously,I eat a lot and I eat everything,thanks to Seseri. -.-

Tomorrow is my QTI.I forgot the full name of it but it's like a test before you go for the jpj test.If I do well,I'm qualified to go for jpj test.yippeeee!:D I hope I'll do well,InsyaAllah.
Okay,I almost cried after maghrib.Just a few tears,not much.lol.I'm scared.Results are coming out.SPM.NOOOOOOOO.Haih,I think I'm having one of those mood swings.Blegh,this annoys me a lot.Don't mess with me people,I'm not in my best mood.Bhahaha.
I drove the family car,Alza. :D Gosh,the car was sooooooooo smooth.I enjoyed driving it.Mother was about to panic when I said I wanted to drive but she managed to calm down.hahaha.I can't wait to get my license. :D
Okay,I need to get my beauty sleep. Good night and sleep well everyone :)

I don't have any money.Damn,cepat gila duit abis,bukannya shopping pun.sigh. -.-

I love Garrett's popcorn.OMG,sedap gilaaaaaaa,especially the chicago mix :D

"Why did you break up with him?"

"Well,we are back together now."

"WHAT?!whyyy??!!"

"I don't know."

"Are you feeling guilty?"

"NO."

"Then,there must be a reason to get back with him."

"Can we not talk about this?I don't like to talk about this topic."

"Adik,you need to learn how to express your feelings.You need to talk,you can't just keep it to yourself because you'll burst."

"I know that but I'm okay."

"I had a boyfriend who was abusive.He hit me because I didn't want to give in.Guys are dangerous and crazy nowadays.They tend to hit their own girlfriends without having a sense of guilt in themselves."

"I know that.It's okay,Mama knows about him."

I know it's rude but I really don't like to talk about this topic with my parents.I had that conversation with Stepmother during dinner.It was just the both of us,Father had a meeting so he couldn't join us.I know that she's worried about me since I'm already eighteen and I rarely talk about my feelings or my problems with her.I tend to keep it to myself.Well,that's true but I do talk about my problems with my friends..I guess I'm more comfortable to talk about it with my friends.Furthermore,I don't want my parents to worry about me.I know I've been quiet and I don't talk much whenever I'm with my family.Well,that's just me.I can't change myself.However,I start to talk when I entered Seseri. I still don't tell much though.I just can't,it's not easy,trust me.My parents are worried about me,I know that because all of us suffered back then.They had a hard time with my sister.They are just scared that I'll end up like that but I won't,okay?Please believe me.I'm okay,I know what's wrong and what's right.I know my boundaries.I know what kind of friends to choose and please,don't ever judge my friends without getting to know them first.My friends matter a lot to me.They help me a lot in my life and they definitely play a vital role in my life.Without them,I don't think I'll be truly happy.Please,just believe me in this.I'm okay,I'm not involve in bad things.I don't drink,I don't even sneak out.I'm not like her.We are totally different.She's the opposite of me and we are not even close.I'm not gonna say that I'm better than her or more mature than her but I do know how to handle myself in certain ways.I know the pros and cons.InsyaAllah,everything will be fine.I believe in Allah.

I went out with jijah to education fair.We watched the darkest hour before going there.hehe.Thanks for the day babe,I enjoyed it.Oh yaaaaa,I met hafidz btw :D He joined us for the career talk and all of us were sleepy but it was not a strange thing to us anymore since we were like that back in school.LOL