WOW.

It has been a very long time since I last updated my blog.Blogger,I MISS YOU LIKE FREAKING HELL!For now,I can't update that much,I have too many things to do.

Hmm,so far,I'm improving.I'm still struggling though but I won't give up,I'll make it,Insyaallah :)
I love my class.We finally started to be close.We do break some rules but luckily we are not caught.hahaha.
I can't type any longer,time is too precious.I'm sorry.
Goodbye,take care everyone.Wish me luck for my diagnostic test which will be held on Monday,19/4/2010. GULP :s



Babes,I miss all of you.We must hang out next time.deal?hehe.


Amy and Sino,thanks for the Saturday meeting.I had a blast with you guys.Qila,really wish you could join us on that day.I miss you la tangechi!bye guys,take care.Don't forget about me.hehe :p


By the way,last night,when I was about to fall asleep,I got a call from an unknown number.I was sleepy so I can't be bothered about the number and I simply answered it.Guess what?It was from Syed's friend!!He said Syed wanted to talk to me.OMG,I felt like jumping.Lol.We managed to talk though it was not a long talk like we used to do last time,right?hehe.I'm really happy that we managed to talk.It felt awesome hearing from you.Get well soon dear.I'm looking forward to meet you during the Wesak holiday. :D
I love you very much and only God knows how much I'm missing you now.
Take care and don't forget to take your medicines.hehe.Bye :)


I wanna get 9A+!HAHA.That's my aim for spm.Insyaallah dapat. :)

LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH.TAKE CARE.

HAHA!I still remember this!:D The fights.HAHA.Aww,memories :)

:D

When was this?Form 3,I guess.hehe.OMG.We looked different than we are now,especially the one in the middle.HAHA. :D You look kinda chubby but now,wow,you look wayyyyyy different than this. ;)

I actually miss it when you call me budak kecik.hehe :)

AIRINA!!!JUST FACE THE FACT THAT YOU ARE IN SESERI!! JUST QUIT NAGGING AND BE SERIOUS!YOUR FUTURE MATTERS THE MOST NOW!

I've been complaining about my life in seseri,saying that it sucks and whatsoever.I'm such a spoiled brat.-.- Seriously,I just feel like beating myself up.WAKE UP AIRIN!FACE THE REALITY! UGH,I'M SUCH A PATHETIC PERSON. :'(

Whatever it is,I'll try to stop complaining and be serious.Like Mother said,'spm is no joke.' Yeah,I know that very well.I guess I need time to adapt myself in seseri. Insyaallah,after this holiday,I'll be better,more discipline,of course. No more playing around like I used to. No more cursing.

I'll love my school though I'm not sure when I'll seriously love it.

:)

Hello everyone.haha.Quite a long time since I last updated my blog eh?Lol.I'm not in seksyen 4 anymore.SOB.haha.I'm now in sains seri puteri,kuala lumpur.I moved there last week on tuesday.

First day:

I was really excited because it was the start of something new.I kept telling to myself that I would improve myself.No more being shy and just stand out in the crowd.First day was hectic.There were people everywhere and the students were REALLY POLITE.It freaked me out.Father went home first since he had work but Mother stayed longer.After registration,I went back home and did a few stuff.I took a nap and went back to school.Mother said goodbye.I wasn't sad during that time.I was feeling very excited because this was what I wanted so badly.I got my wish and Alhamdullilah. :) I took my shower and had dinner.After that,I went to the surau.After maghrib,I started to feel lonely and broke down.I cried like hell.Fortunately,Isma which was from seksyen 10,kota damansara knows me.She calmed me down.I felt a bit better after that.ONLY A BIT.We didn't study for the first week as we had minggu asimilasi.Lectures after lectures.I found it very difficult to mix around with people so I was often alone.Being alone is the thing that I HATE THE MOST!I was devastated.There was one time when I almost gave up.I told myself,dh nekad dh (HAHA) that I wanted to go back.I called Mother.I cried when I was talking to her.I told her that I missed her so much and I told her that I wanted to go back.I couldn't stand staying there.Mother cried too and she gave encouragements to me.She told me to be strong and I would feel better after this.

Second day onwards:

I woke up and I was still in this nightmare.Damn.In my heart,I still wanted to go back.I didn't want to continue my studies here.I'd rather study in seksyen 4.Then,pakar motivasi dtg bagi ceramah. After listening to his speech,I changed my mind.I finally decided to stay in that school.I felt really bad for my parents.I realized that I was being really selfish.Ever since then,I kept telling to myself to be strong and bear with the strictness.The seniors are really nice.I'm glad.Lol.




So yeah,I'm finally starting to fit in with everyone.I made new friends.AND I love my bio teacher!:D She's awesome.Lovelovelove.HAHAHA.I'm only taking 9 subjects.No accounts.I'm taking traditional dance class.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.Tarian zapin,kadazan and whatsoever.LOL.It's really tiring but it's fun.

My wish came true.I wanted to improve myself and by being in this new school,I'll get to do it.InsyaAllah.

I'm really trying my best to fulfill my wish.Damn,you don't wanna know how hard it is but this is the only way.
A fresh start.

The most valuable lesson that I learned:

Appreciation.I finally appreciate with everything that I have and I'm really glad that I still have all of it.

Mother was admitted to the hospital yesterday morning.Fortunately,nothing serious happened.She was allowed to go back home. :) Just now,went to my aunt's house in damansara utama to discuss about my cousin's wedding and just a little gathering. My nephew is SO ADORABLE. :D I played with him. Everyone said congrats to me since I got sm sains seri puteri.Thank you aunties and uncles!I ate a lot today.hahaha. When I was about to go home,surprisingly,my aunties and uncles gave me money.:DDDD I got a few hundreds.WOOHOO!:D I didn't expect that to happen. They kept saying,'belajar rajin-rajin.' I will. :) They are putting high hopes on me and I can't let them down. I promise I'll do better after this.

My stepfather asked,'what do you think about moving to sg.penchala?you will get your own room.' WTFWTFWTFWTF. :/
I said no immediately.My parents have a lot there.They are planning to build a house which is just beside my stepgrandmother's house. Come on,there's NOTHING there except mosquitoes. -.- There are NO SHOPS nearby at all,no mamak,no petronas,no playground and no neighbors.well,there are neighbors but only THREE. THREE!!!!! SHIT. :'( They don't even have a surau. There's a mosque but you have to go there by car. EVERTHING IS FAR. I REPEAT,FAR AWAY.

I'M SO ANGRY.I DON'T WANNA MOVE!I LOVE IT HERE!THEY HAVE EVERYTHING HERE.NOTHING IS THERE!THAT PLACE IS MUCH MORE DANGEROUS. THAN HERE.I CAN'T EVEN GO OUT IF I LIVE THERE.I CAN'T WALK AROUND.I'M STUCK IN THE HOUSE.TRAPPED LIKE IN A PRISON. A PRISON!D:

The last day of school.I was sleepy by the time I reached school.Came to school with Mother.I learned in class like normal.Then,I got my essay about 'my perfect future husband'.Pn. Tanty just gave it to me just now.She wrote at the bottom,'good and mature points.Best of luck!;)'

That made me smiled. :) She knew that I'll be moving to another school next week.She's a great teacher and I love the way she talks.Before English class,I had my BM class.Pn. Rozita teached me.She's really good.I hugged her before after the class ended.During recess,met Pn. Arnida.She teached me Science when I was in Form 3.Talked to her and we hugged.Although she likes to nag,I still love her. :) I slept during Add Math class.I don't know why I felt so tired.Hmm.

When the bell rang,I felt sad.The thought of leaving Seksyen 4 made me cry although I used to hate this school VERY MUCH.haha.

I went to the bilik guru to meet my form teacher,Pn.Noraini.I gave her my textbooks and hugged her. :') She's really nice ad motherly.Plus,she reminds me of Ms.Umbridge. :D

Here comes the sad part.My friends and I cried.This is difficult.I'm not in the same school with my boyfriend NOR my best friends.I'm all alone now. :'( But don't worry guys,I will always remember every single of you. :)


Thank you for everything.We have been through a lot of things.We fought a lot but that made us even more closer.We always support each other. We grew up together.We made silly jokes together.We acted stupid together.We went crazy together.We sang together.We danced together.We cried together.All of the sweet memories we shared for the past few years,I'll cherish them. :') I love you guys VERY MUCH.I'll miss all of you like crazy.We may be studying in different schools but we will still be best friends.Nothing will ever change between us.Good luck and take care!

Love,
Airina.