gosh,I really miss being in seseri :'(
Salam :)
I cried really bad last night.It was about something.Scholarship.Sigh.I didn't know that getting a sholarship would be really difficult.It's really stressing me out.I desperately need a scholarship.I don't want my parents to sell something in order for me to pursue my studies. I don't want that to happen,never.Please,don't let that happen.pleaseeeee :'(
Salam.Good morning everyone :)
It's Monday now.Approximately a week before the results being exposed to the public -.- There will be media at my school.Woah,it's a big thing.Yeah,of course it's a big thing.I'm scared but I can't do anything for now besides hoping for the best and I gotta keep praying.My parents said ,'it's okay,whatever the result is,it's still your result.You can't change anything.Just keep moving forward and plan ahead.' Yeah,I know that very well but I can't imagine the consequences if I don't get what I want.I'm sorry.I do sound selfish but I can't stop thinking about it.I'm really scared.I really wanna get what I've been dreaming about but Allah knows the best for me.I truly believe in that.InsyaAllah,please,everything will run smoothly.I keep seeing my friends and seniors flying overseas to further their studies and of course,I wanna be like them one day.This is my chance to see the world,to experience new things,to have fun with my friends.I want my parents to be proud of me,I really do.They put high hopes on me and it's a lot of pressure there but whatever it is,I know they will still love me no matter what.They have been there for me the whole time.They managed to compromise with my crazy attitude and they really trust me for not making stupid decisions.I'll never break the trust.This may sound silly but Father will not be with me during the announcement of the results.He has work somewhere and I truly understand that.It's just gonna be Mother and Stepfather,I guess.I'm not sure if my stepfather will follow but I think he will since my father is not gonna come.Whatever it is,I gotta face the reality.Stop living in fantasies.InsyaAllah,Clarion will be the best.Please pray for us.I want my batch to be the best despite having a lot of issues.We were teenagers and we were not perfect.We made mistakes and we learned from them.It's a part of growing up.
Anyway,I just finished watching a movie called The Pregnancy Pact.I found it in youtube and I was actually interested in watching it.Lol.It's a good movie,seriously.I don't really like the ending but the ending is the reality so yeah,I gotta accept that.Lol.
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