just let it go and move on.

As simple as that.HAHA.never weyh.I thought it would but that's just bullshit.No matter what,it remains in you.There's always a piece in my heart.

So yeah,I'm single.wow,it's definitely not easy to say that although I asked for it.It's complicated.He had done NOTHING WRONG.He's perfect for me but perfect seems to freak me out nowadays.I just don't know why.However,it's more about me.I'm currently having problems with myself.I'm not normal and I think I won't be at all.There was one point when I could finally say that 'I LOVE MYSELF.IT'S OKAY,I'M NOT AS PRETTY AS THE GIRLS OUT THERE,I'M NOT AS SKINNY AS THE GIRLS OUT THERE,I'M NOT AS GENIUS AS THE GIRLS OUT THERE.I HAVE ALLAH TO GUIDE ME TO THE RIGHT PATH'.

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOU AIRINA?

I don't even know why.The depression is coming back and it's definitely haunting me.I blamed the eating disorders,broken families.HAHA.Come on Airina,you're being pathetic.

Moving on is definitely not easy but it's reality.you don't move on,you won't get what you want,especially in achieving your ultimate dream.I don't know why but I'm depressed. Mood swings are killing me faster than I thought.

I let go someone I knew so well,someone who was always there for me,someone who accepted me without any complaint,

and the most importantly,

someone who loved me more than I do.

Congrats Airina.

But I need time to think about myself. Blame me for being selfish and a jerk.I had to do it.I need to have a positive thinking. InsyaAllah,things will be better after this.

I still love you,after I asked for it,I'm starting to miss you but I'm holding back because it's not the right time.